greeneyes story

My Story

(it's a long one.)

I want to start out by telling you that as of today Feb. 29, 2000 that I've only been posting on the boards for a total of four weeks. I've watched the show, but didn't really get totally into it until Riley showed up. Granted Marc is adorable, but what really got me what the memories that it stirred up. When I was in college I was very happy. I was in great shape and doing really good socially and academically. My life was as close to perfect as you could get. I got down to a size 7, and was having a great time, skating, biking, dancing, flirting, scuba diving, etc. I met my husband during this time. We were a totally cute couple. I had noticed him because he was just so cute, with these great dimples when he smiled. When he smiled I smiled. When Buffy said that line I just melted. It reminded me so much of why I fell in love with Jim. I was so extremely happy and life was just so good.

Well it was too good, and soon changed a lot. On March 2, 1987 my perfect life crashed to the ground. My father who I adored died of cancer, while I was at work. Luckily for me my supervisor got Jim first and then came and got me. Jim took me home and stayed with me through out the funeral and everything else. That day was the start of the worst time of my life. I started falling into a depression that lasted for a very long time. I immediately started gaining weight and by the end of that year I was in a size 14. I was no longer the happy girl that I had been. Luckily Jim remained in my life, and the next year we were married.

We had good times, but I never was as happy as I had been in college. As the years went on I started to come out of the darkness, but that ended when my sister gave birth 10 weeks prematurely to my nephews. I started losing it again. I gained even more weight. My job began to suffer, and the fast track that I had been on at work, derailed. I had the first of several nervous breakdowns. Although at the time I didn't really realize that was what was happening.

I changed work locations and started a bit fresh, and I was doing pretty well for a while. I finally got some grief counseling, and started back on the fast track. I actually started losing weight again, and it looked like I was moving ahead. Then something happened again, and I crashed hard. Nervous breakdown number two. The weight started piling on again, and my job suffered. The shining light in all of this was that I was still in love with my husband and he stood by me through the hard times.

I was lucky enough to have some supervisors who had been my friends and they knew my potential. They gave me a chance that my record did not deserve. I started shining again. I was once again on the fast track and starting to feel actually happy again. Didn't lose as much weight, but was feeling pretty good.

Then my husband and I decided it was time to start our family. We knew that we wanted me to be a stay at home mom, and that we couldn't do it where we were at, so we took a leap of faith and moved 500 miles away from our families and started our new life together. Within a year we had bought our first home and were pregnant. Our daughter was born in Aug. of 1997, and seven months later I discovered that I was 2 months pregnant with our son. My life was so full. We had a wonderful home, two great children, a church that we loved, and a wonderful marriage. That is when my major breakdown happened.

Last Oct. For no apparent reason I had a very severe nervous breakdown. The stress on my body from having two children so close together was more than my system could take. I basically shut down. With the loving support of my husband I went and saw a counselor. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and put on medication. It was the scariest time of my life. I was so over whelmed and didn't want to hope that two little pills every morning could change my life. Well change my life it did. (more)





	My Story (it's a long one.) I want to start out by telling you that as of today Feb. 29, 2000 that I've only been posting on the boards for a total of four weeks. I've watched the show, but didn't really get totally into it until Riley showed up. Granted Marc is adorable, but what really got me what the memories that it stirred up. When I was in college I was very happy. I was in great shape and doing really good socially and academically. My life was as close to perfect as you could get. I got down to a size 7, and was having a great time, skating, biking, dancing, flirting, scuba diving, etc. I met my husband during this time. We were a totally cute couple. I had noticed him because he was just so cute, with these great dimples when he smiled. When he smiled I smiled. When Buffy said that line I just melted. It reminded me so much of why I fell in love with Jim. I was so extremely happy and life was just so good. Well it was too good, and soon changed a lot. On March 2, 1987 my perfect life crashed to the ground. My father who I adored died of cancer, while I was at work. Luckily for me my supervisor got Jim first and then came and got me. Jim took me home and stayed with me through out the funeral and everything else. That day was the start of the worst time of my life. I started falling into a depression that lasted for a very long time. I immediately started gaining weight and by the end of that year I was in a size 14. I was no longer the happy girl that I had been. Luckily Jim remained in my life, and the next year we were married. We had good times, but I never was as happy as I had been in college. As the years went on I started to come out of the darkness, but that ended when my sister gave birth 10 weeks prematurely to my nephews. I started losing it again. I gained even more weight. My job began to suffer, and the fast track that I had been on at work, derailed. I had the first of several nervous breakdowns. Although at the time I didn't really realize that was what was happening. I changed work locations and started a bit fresh, and I was doing pretty well for a while. I finally got some grief counseling, and started back on the fast track. I actually started losing weight again, and it looked like I was moving ahead. Then something happened again, and I crashed hard. Nervous breakdown number two. The weight started piling on again, and my job suffered. The shining light in all of this was that I was still in love with my husband and he stood by me through the hard times. I was lucky enough to have some supervisors who had been my friends and they knew my potential. They gave me a chance that my record did not deserve. I started shining again. I was once again on the fast track and starting to feel actually happy again. Didn't lose as much weight, but was feeling pretty good. Then my husband and I decided it was time to start our family. We knew that we wanted me to be a stay at home mom, and that we couldn't do it where we were at, so we took a leap of faith and moved 500 miles away from our families and started our new life together. Within a year we had bought our first home and were pregnant. Our daughter was born in Aug. of 1997, and seven months later I discovered that I was 2 months pregnant with our son. My life was so full. We had a wonderful home, two great children, a church that we loved, and a wonderful marriage. That is when my major breakdown happened. Last Oct. For no apparent reason I had a very severe nervous breakdown. The stress on my body from having two children so close together was more than my system could take. I basically shut down. With the loving support of my husband I went and saw a counselor. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and put on medication. It was the scariest time of my life. I was so over whelmed and didn't want to hope that two little pills every morning could change my life. Well change my life it did. (more)